“And now, I just have so much love for the Lord,” said the woman sitting across from in the seminary cafeteria. We were sharing each other’s biographies and that’s how hers ended.
“That’s great,” I said kind of half-heartedly. Really, I was just being polite. Her comment didn’t make a whole lot of sense to me. At that point in my life, I just wouldn’t express my journey with Jesus with such emotional enthusiasm. What did that mean, anyway? Loving the Lord?
Do you love Jesus? Some of you might answer, “Yes”. Many of you might give that answer out of a sense of obligation. It is what you’re supposed to say in church. Yet inside you wonder what loving Jesus actually means. It can be a strange and difficult concept when you really think about it. Where does one go to love this Jesus and what does one do when one gets there? No offense to those of other sexual orientations, but it’s a particularly difficult concept for many heterosexual men. After all, the church often uses the language to describe a relationship with Jesus that borders on that of romantic love. We sing about how beautiful he is, his tender love, how we’re going to give it up for him. Face it, it can all be a little - well, weird.
Maybe you once were like the woman I met in the seminary cafeteria. You felt a passionate love for Jesus at one time on your life, but now it’s difficult to feel anything for him. Maybe you have no difficulty at all loving Jesus and exclaiming it fervently. Yet you know that one day life may throw you a curve, and you worry that love will die. Is there anything to loving Jesus beyond just our feelings?